it's been a while, old friend.

For Lent this year, I gave up my computer. This included facebook, blogging, anything outside of educational purposes (I'm taking an online class). I did really well, for the most part. I read some great books and learned some important things. I also finished student teaching. My student teaching experience was beyond anything I ever expected. I loved every minute of it. As much as I hated waking up at 6 AM every day, and as close as I came to falling asleep behind the wheel on the way to school, I absolutely looked forward to every day. It really confirmed my desire to teach.

Yet, somehow, through all this time and change, I find myself still wanting to grow and do and be more in the presence of God and God's ministry. Frustration.

Time is passing, and each day brings me closer and closer to life as a seminary student. Part of me is so excited and anxious to move, and part of me is scared to hell. The people I have met are wonderful, and I hear the friendships you make in divinity school are unlike those anywhere else because you are all fighting the same fight. I just had a really great discussion with one of the students entering with me and, after it, I can truly say with confidence (as if I didn't have enough already), that I cannot wait to begin.

Here I am, Lord. Where do I go from here? It's hard to listen, but I'm trying every day. Forgive me when I don't.